February 2012
92 posts
late night phone logs. part iv. Conclusion -...
late night phone logs. part iii. - kayleb
late night phone logs. part ii. - kayleb
late night phone logs. part i. - kayleb
Something about rain on skin fulfills and feels like gentle and smooth upon your whens. When- you can embrace the tears of heaven, or mother nature, or whatever metaphor of water eludes you from within. Basically, you know how the elegence of rain showers just attaches to your body, the way it glides on your skin. I’m trying, trying to explain to you, how much of a win it be to fuck like how...
I like to keep my issues in words. I'd rather have...
- Kayleb.
Her: you want to be my… partner. My, … boyfriend
Me: no. … fuck no.
I wouldnt have made it this far- if there were people who believed in me. I would have failed- if my surrounding was surrounded by sugarcoated praises. If people believed in me, i wouldnt have known what limitless and potential was, i wouldve been accustomed to being content and settlement, “happy” because im so used to that bar “praises” has set. I’m surrounded with...
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Simple. Women want men who don't want them, they...
- kayleb.
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can you love someone you know you'll never be able...
it seems like the ones who were so school orientated, textbook AND socially, in high school grew up not knowing what the fuck to do and who the fuck they truly are. as in the institutionalized system of education was a system of reformation and conformity. the ones who fell into the social prejudice of nerds, jocks, etc all grew up to be some pretty fucked up mother fuckers.
and i see it...
my goal is to push myself beyond my own limits, to...
I’m proud at where my body and health is. From my back, to my calves (fuck skinny jeans, they’ll rip), to my abs, to my forearms and even neck, my face structure. The whole nine. Fucking proud of myself. I cant wait to reach sculpture status.
adefectiveidealist:
“I have the deepest affection for intellectual conversations. The ability to just sit and talk. About love, about life, about anything, about everything. To sit under the moon with all the time in the world, the full-speed train that is our lives slowing to a crawl. Bound by no obligations, barred by no human limitations. To speak without regret or fear of consequence. To talk...
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Deep shit.
One-Mic(helle): LOL funny how you said at first (although a 'Typo') 'until you realize I want a romantic'. Interestinggggg romance seeker. (the typo being want was suppose to be wasnt - kayleb)
One-Mic(helle): You just want some good ole lovin despite it all haha
Kayleb: Negative. Contrary to the foundation of relations which are based upon emotions. Mine are more mental and physical. The emotions are frosting. Id rather the cake and cup. The roots. The tree. Versus the "leaves" because I want, no, need something that has solidity. Mindset ever growing, physical ever shaping. Someone ambitious, someone who puts emotions aside for her dreams, someone I don't need to (care)ry because she can carry herself and i, myself. Strong individuals. We go for the top, versus settle for the contents. Someone that challenges each other without stepping over each other. Balance without giving shit up. That's my romance. Without (roam)mance.
One-Mic(helle): I had that mentality in high school. I wanted to chase my own before chasing others. And then I got cauaght up. Honestly I wish I experienced emotional shit before college so I can understand the bullshit faster and not get tempted to give in later. Oh well haha
Kayleb: I experienced it after high school, in college, lost it in college. So what makes us different? ....Our choice to react to our changes.
One-Mic(helle): Yeah you dealt it better than I.
Kayleb: And there's still time to deal with it better. There ain't no limit to what you learn and when you learn it, where you learn it. Sometimes what you recognize becomes light of down the road. I didn't realize all my mistakes in my last relation, from meeting her to ending it.. fully understand her, myself, us til 3-4 years later. To which I can say where I went wrong and how my subconscious worked. At first accepting, I don't have to move on right away and at first accepting, I don't need healing. I need learning.
One-Mic(helle): ItS just bad timing to be 'learning' when i'm hitting a third-life college crisis and I have no idea what I want to do anymore. relationships, emotions, uncertainties is something tht does not need to be in my life right now and it is.
One-Mic(helle): I look forward to be in tnat stage where you're at now
Kayleb: Excuse. I could go into everything I had on my plate, but hey people can only eat what they're dealt, some leave leftovers. Some seconds, even des(s)erts. There's nothing wrong with having no clue, nothing wrong with life giving you lemons. Fuck, free lemons. Well, let me be the guest. Sour, sweet, bitter. Shits, fucking free. Eat that shit with fish sauce and peppers. Or add it to my plate. Life is constant learning, you need to accept that. Accept everything is learning, when people talk to you, how they talk to you, others, react, everything. is. learning. Whether you like it or not, whether you don't want to or not. You learn, and sponge everything, absorb it, and see why it connects, why all these things exist in the very moment and how all that does so, lives coexistently with each other. You realize its all a learning process and it teaches you- process. That's life. Versus sitting around worried and scared, you find strength in those weaknesses. So right now, when is the right time? When is there good timing? A good time? Good, bad. They exist coexistently. So where do you choose to exist yourself. So these things don't need to be in your life, yet they are. They will always. And there is no stage. I'm forever growing, no matter how "arrogant" I seem, or "cocky" is only because I grasp the power of growing and learning, and it boggles my fucking mind why others aren't. I'm taking my time, I'm in no rush because I love how I'm always learning, be given lemons. There is no stage or level, when there's no limit to the possibilities. It's limitless, like potential is forever infinity and beyond. Life is a circle. Add two circles together, you get an eight. Turn an eight sideways, you see the infinite possibilities. It's an 8 ball, you can shake and shimmy for answers but it always infinitly change, and infinity come to the answer you seek. Circle of life. Loop of the eight. What goes around comes around. So instead of running, realizing you'll just be back here...
Kayleb: And embrace it. Life's your eight/ate. Your infinite. Be eaten or eat. It's your plate. You choose your food for thought.
Kayleb: And notice how I use everyday life to convey my point. Learning, is in everything. Everything is an example, a circle of life.
The only literature most people care for now are...
Please do not use "irony" as an excuse to be...
“Irony. Irony is the act of conveying a meaning that is opposite of it’s literal meaning. Now are we discussing dramatic irony, or socratic irony, or poetic irony. I believe irony itself is used incorrectly, smiley face. It’s more of a paradox, satire, twist. Not a contradiction. Irony is to signify the differences between what appears to be reality and things, in a general...
Relationship confession #81837
after being single for awhile and being in tuned with my mindset, experiencing who I am and what i am capable of, the ability to be honest with myself and analyze myself without remorse and understanding my faults- the mindset i had when i was younger and dated someone…
fuck up to say, but subconsciously i didnt know it but i was in a relationship with someone to make sure i’m...
I have bad luck.
With woman who are themselves attached to someone.
It seems the bachelor slash ‘playa’ gods like throwing taken misses at me just to fuck with me and theyre in their cloud nine sofas just like “this one. I bet he’d fuck this one. 20 halos he fucks her and gets caught up.” “I raise that bet! 50 halos” and yet i havent…yet? And its like all the...
it’s like straight out of the movies.
Next door neighbor. Sexy. Ass. Fuck. French. Truly foreign. Her husband… husband is always away on business. And she knows im right next door. Her blinds are always open and she’s always half naked around the house. And today, she’s smoking with just her robe, smiling.. and i get a wink. I smile back. ….Kayleb, married...
when i contemplate life, i take a look at the years and upcoming years and i dont want to spend at most my whole life with someone else, can you imagine… average age 20 ish people attach themselves to someone, get married, on average at 25..married.. Lets say they live to be a 100.. thats… 80 percent of your life… with someone, you’re barely you, never exploring the...
Can I fuck the shit out of your senses?
kaylebleechan:
Ain’t no may i. It’s can i.
Can I?
mister-gray:
“Can I fuck you (sense)less?” Deaf to her body’s movements, numb to her moans of ecstasy, The stench of lust has quickly become repulsive. He can taste the regret on her lips.
yet her body satisfied. no matter how she lies… to herself. lie, in positions. her body- satisfied. each sense multip(lied) as long as she gets...
Your vagina obscene. As if of scene. Serene. Unlikely, so i’m to attest. I dont like a closed vagina, nor do i like an extensively opened. I’m more of the texture type written alike, teased with tights. Covered with rights. The right to remain silent, anything you say, can or will be used against you. And oh how its used against me. Get it? Against me… And against.. me…...
Can I fuck the shit out of your senses?
Ain’t no may i. It’s can i.
Can I?
That shit- starts with her eyes. The contact, no matter what distance in the middle of chaos or settlement. That shit. Starts with the eyes. Her eyes. and its not what i see in her eyes, you know some may say, ambitious eyes or whatever adjective eyes. No, it’s what she sees, emphasize sees. period. the way she looks- at me, and if a smile follows. When that smile follows, it’s an...
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I earn my tomorrow.
Cute. The way her smile cut- corners. Strings, the heart playing emotional puppeteer. Tear- a bit of that bitter to go beyond fears. open up. Because you’ll never know a smile that can do you like those. Every smile likes it’s own finger print, unique- to the lips. And hers, cute. The way she cut-
Corners. And im in the corner debating how the fuck I’d approach her formal. -ly....
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I used to..
I used to worry about our future, not for myself, but the upcoming generation. I used to trip about how the current music is going downhill, how cartoons used to teach moral character and had a moral story behind it, i used to trip about the mainstream media destorying journalism, and how college students lose sight of higher education, i used to trip about being the perfect gentlemen or how the...
I just got “macked” on by a seventeen year old telling me i look cute and i look like i know how to have a good time, giggle…
what.
the.
fuck.
(She thought i was 18. Hell no. I feel. Violated.)
What is it about Valentine's day that gets...
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FAIL: when youre a misses and you are your man's...
Not easily impressed. Unimpressed. The press becomes a paper for news, or more like knews. The obvious stated, what happened to the challenge. Challenging the unquestioned.
But It seems answers are better served altered and un-questioned.
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Friend: you're wasting your intelligence
Me: haha. Maybe i havent "worked out" what i want to use it for, but i still have a lot to learn and understand
Friend: stop trying to be humble, you're smart and you don't have any foundation of what you want in the future with it. drinking, kicking it, working out, all that knowledge spent... For what?
Me: like i said, im "working it out".
Friend: going to finish college? You have a semester left...
Me: maybe, the average student finishes at age 22. And that's one bachelor. I was going to finish at 20, with three. Wouldnt you question that? What your worth is? I could finish whenever i want, what then?
Friend: you're wasting your intellect. *sigh
